Having just returned from my third viewing, I just have to type out my feelings.
There are 3 scenes that I just can't get out of my mind this evening.
The scene just before the second night in the tent. I did not notice until tonight that you can see Jack in the tent and he is shirtless (in the short story he is naked but it appears as he rolls over he still has his jeans on in the movie). If we can see that, then Ennis could see it. With no dialog, we see the inner turmoil that Ennis is fighting. I can so identify with the emotions of that scene when you see that he so wants to go to the tent but it is his own self holding him back. He struggles, denies, justifies, and then his heart wins and he, almost defeated, walks toward the tent, knowing full well what will happen. Amazing, raw emotion.
The look of total love he gives Jack as they ride horses just after separating the sheep herds. He playfully scolds Jack and says "You'll run the sheep off again if you don't quiet down." but the look, and it is only a fleeting moment before the scene ends, is just so amazing. Ennis Del Mar has found peace and complete openness in what up to then has been a way more difficult life than any 19-year old should have. Balance that with the anguish he feels as Jack pulls away after they come down from BBM.
The apple pie scene. Ennis is just the embodiment of loneliness and Cassie captures all the desperation and hurt of the woman shunned. I just feel so sad during that scene, it overwhelms me with despair...as Annie says, all the weight of Brokeback Mountain floods over me at that point.
The other scene I think is so telling of Ennis is the playfulness between him and Alma Jr. outside of the trailer. He is feigning ignorance at who she is seeing and that, I can tell you from actual experience, is exactly what we fathers do because it causes our daughters to have to say more and we then learn stuff! We play dumb for a reason sometimes!!!
OK...that was 4 scenes. I'll stop there.