Eclypto --
I am very sorry to hear about you losing your partner. It's really fucked up sometimes, isn't it? Completely unfair, just complete crap. Makes no sense whatsoever.
I know it's no comfort to you now, but you will feel a whole lot better after a while. It may take longer than some of your friends expect, but whatever. Anybody that has heard about that "stages of grief" thing, and thinks they know all about grief -- screw 'em if they stick their nose in and think they are helping. Dreams may be tough at first, I don't know, but in the end they will be very helpful. Good luck buddy and may the Force be with you.
Dal