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Re: Mourning Someone Who Has Died
« Reply #510 on: January 25, 2007, 12:33:11 AM »

A couple days after Dad's death Nick replied in PM to a post I left somewhere in this forum, in the "Affected Me" thread, I think. His private message started what has turned out to be the most important relationship I have ever had. We are in day to day contact, literally hours each day, through cell texts, IM's, emails and especially video chats through Skype and AIM. We wouldn't have met without Dad's expected death, without Nick's compassionate PM that encouraged me to write him back...



I thank you, Dad, for the miracle that has become my life... Without your passing I doubt I would've made the connection with Nicky, I doubt I would've come out of the closet.

Without our movie, without Ennis and Jack, without this forum and especially without our family of forum members, I doubt I'd be where I am now...

My love to you all,
Rob (still heading towards Ardleigh...)

Saturday is Nick and my First Anniversary...



Thank you Rob for sharing your amazing story with us in detail and all the photographs. It gave me a very positive feeling about my own life ahead and I can believe that good will come out of this and light will come out of the seeming darkness. Let us be in touch ... I see we have much in common.
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Re: Mourning Someone Who Has Died
« Reply #511 on: January 25, 2007, 02:50:54 AM »
Lovely,

How are you holding up? Still early in the grieving, I know, so much pain I would think.

A shoulder for you here when you need one, warm hugs, too...

Please PM if you'd like,
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Re: Mourning Someone Who Has Died
« Reply #512 on: January 25, 2007, 02:52:23 AM »
your dad looked like a fine man rob and he can be so proud of you!!
take care sweets  :-*
Thank you, Conny...

You know you are loved... and missed,
Kisses and hugs,
Rob
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Re: Mourning Someone Who Has Died
« Reply #513 on: January 25, 2007, 02:57:54 AM »
((((((((((((((((((((((((ROB))))))))))))))))))))))))))) with you and you know it.

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Re: Mourning Someone Who Has Died
« Reply #514 on: January 25, 2007, 02:59:47 AM »
((((((((((((((((((((((((ROB))))))))))))))))))))))))))) with you and you know it.

Thank you Neil... I'm feeling it, and it's good, and very welcomed...
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Re: Mourning Someone Who Has Died
« Reply #515 on: January 25, 2007, 04:42:01 AM »
That's a very cool picture of you between your dad and your Uncle, Rob.  Thanks for sharing.  :-*

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p.s. - you seemed much blonder there.  perhaps you are on a 'reverse Lureen' trajectory.
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Re: Mourning Someone Who Has Died
« Reply #516 on: January 25, 2007, 04:49:25 AM »
Rob, that's the second time you've made me cry.  Thanks

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Re: Mourning Someone Who Has Died
« Reply #517 on: January 25, 2007, 04:59:36 AM »
That's a very cool picture of you between your dad and your Uncle, Rob.  Thanks for sharing.  :-*

mf

p.s. - you seemed much blonder there.  perhaps you are on a 'reverse Lureen' trajectory.

I love your sense of humor, Mikey, and I love you as well...

(maybe I am in "reverse Lureen trajectory"... could be a good thing, eh?)

 :-* :-* :-*
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Re: Mourning Someone Who Has Died
« Reply #518 on: January 25, 2007, 05:00:28 AM »
Rob, that's the second time you've made me cry.  Thanks

I hoping that's an okay thing, Anna...
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Re: Mourning Someone Who Has Died
« Reply #519 on: January 25, 2007, 05:01:24 AM »
I love your sense of humor, Mikey, and I love you as well...

(maybe I am in "reverse Lureen trajectory"... could be a good thing, eh?)

 :-* :-* :-*

I love you too, Rob - and yes, that would be a good thing!

Hugs, kisses and thoughts of you with Nick!

mf  :-*
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Re: Mourning Someone Who Has Died
« Reply #520 on: January 25, 2007, 06:23:40 AM »
That's a very cool picture of you between your dad and your Uncle, Rob.  Thanks for sharing.  :-*

mf

p.s. - you seemed much blonder there.  perhaps you are on a 'reverse Lureen' trajectory.

I love your sense of humor, Mikey, and I love you as well...

(maybe I am in "reverse Lureen trajectory"... could be a good thing, eh?)

 :-* :-* :-*

Oh absolutely!

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Re: Mourning Someone Who Has Died
« Reply #521 on: January 25, 2007, 06:29:03 AM »
That's a very cool picture of you between your dad and your Uncle, Rob.  Thanks for sharing.  :-*

mf

p.s. - you seemed much blonder there.  perhaps you are on a 'reverse Lureen' trajectory.

I love your sense of humor, Mikey, and I love you as well...

(maybe I am in "reverse Lureen trajectory"... could be a good thing, eh?)

 :-* :-* :-*

Oh absolutely!
Theres a whole thread there..... but not here.
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Re: Mourning Someone Who Has Died
« Reply #522 on: January 25, 2007, 06:35:46 AM »
Lovelyamazing,

I have not visited this thread in several weeks, and am therefore late, as usual.

I am so very saddened to learn of your Mum's passing.  All I can offer is boundless empathy with you.  Well, that, and alongside so many others, a reasonably strong shoulder to lean on if you need it.

For 11 years, I was sole caregiver for my Mum and my Dad, both of whom had, and subsequently died as a consequence of, Alzheimer's disease.  As you will understand, it was so difficult to watch those precious individuals ever so slowly disappear before my very eyes.

During the 5 years I worked, as a priest, in war zones in southern Africa, I never had time to mourn those many around me who were senselessly murdered, for there was simply too much to do.  After leaving Africa, owing to my own illness and gunshot wounds, I quickly came to realise that I had been in a constant state of grief, and I promptly fell apart.

The same dynamic occurred during my care for Mum and Dad.  There was no time to grieve for there was so much to do, yet I was grieving all the while.  As is the case with so many other people, I am terrific in a crisis situation.  It is afterwards that I collapse into a heap.

I understand, intimately, how you feel and the process through which you are going.  How glad I am that you are surrounded by the dear, loving individuals in this forum.

You and your Mum are now in my thoughts and my meditations, and there you shall remain.

Malcolm
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Re: Mourning Someone Who Has Died
« Reply #523 on: January 25, 2007, 07:28:00 AM »
You and your Mum are now in my thoughts and my meditations, and there you shall remain.

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Re: Mourning Someone Who Has Died
« Reply #524 on: January 25, 2007, 12:11:29 PM »
Lovelyamazing, my heart goes out to you and your family on the loss of your Mom. No words of wisdom to give....just know that "time heals all wounds". Take care of yourself honey.
You boys sure found a way to make the time pass up there. Twist, you guys wasn't gettin' paid to leave the dogs babysittin' the sheep while you stemmed the rose.