How Brokeback Affected Me--continued

[Miaisland]

Then it was as if a veil fell from my eyes. It is amazing how things can change when you look at your partner with that adoring look that you previously felt ashamed of... I realize that I feared to expose myself too much, I didn't want to lose control, with all my self-esteem and pride.

Can't let go of these words, “that adoring look”. Long ago but I remember.
Hope I still do when I come out of this state of mind. If I do. Today I have my doubts.

I guess I'll keep on reading. When it comes to writing I must admit it – I want to do it in Swedish!

[Elevation]

It is from Alberta, Canada; and I feel SURE that the mural is inspired by BBM. Accordingly, I feel that it is very relevant to how BBM affected people.

BUT be very sure to click on each tile for an enlargement, for there you will see something completely unexpected each time. We were directed first to look into the horse's EYE in this way. Just wonderful. Enjoy. 

    http://www.muralmosaic.com/Cochrane.html

Johnny X, that mosaic link was amazing. Each of those images are gigantic; talk about positivt collaboration! Thanks for that and your sweet comment.

... how shall I thank you all for your sweet replies... hopefully we'll all meet in person some day

Odd as it is to quote oneself, but when I began writing that post I just knew I risked forgetting somebody - so with this post I want to express my  deep gratitude to each and everyone who has since posted kind comments re my and Wayne's posts....
Miaisland, Tigs and chapeaugris and everyone else. Looong time no see, but hopefully next year then!

One person I have not thanked enough here and who deserves a bit of 'public' acknowledgement is a gal who I speak with every other day or so but still, a little word online is also important esp for those who don't know that bbmbliss, Sarah is my dear friend and who I want to thank especially for being there both long before and after I posted that long post - the contents of which  you already knew much about from having shared this bumpy BBM ride with me closer than most people. Huge galore, and *morning booty dance for neighbors*

[CellarDweller115]

One person I have not thanked enough here and who deserves a bit of 'public' acknowledgement is a gal who I speak with every other day or so but still, a little word online is also important esp for those who don't know that bbmbliss, Sarah is my dear friend and who I want to thank especially for being there both long before and after I posted that long post - the contents of which  you already knew much about from having shared this bumpy BBM ride with me closer than most people. Huge galore, and *morning booty dance for neighbors*

"El", I'm so glad you found a friend in Miss Bliss!  She is one of the people who I have very vivid memories of meeting in Texas at the first BBQ, very special and sweet woman!

[bbmbliss]

One person I have not thanked enough here and who deserves a bit of 'public' acknowledgement is a gal who I speak with every other day or so but still, a little word online is also important esp for those who don't know that bbmbliss, Sarah is my dear friend and who I want to thank especially for being there both long before and after I posted that long post - the contents of which  you already knew much about from having shared this bumpy BBM ride with me closer than most people. Huge galore, and *morning booty dance for neighbors*

Thanks sweetie    *dancing right along with you* 

And thanks Chuck too!

[Zudos]

Ahhhhhh You know you are special Sarah

[bbmbliss]

  to you too Wayne! 

[gavern]

This movie has had an incredible impact on my soul. I can't really use words to describe it. I am a 31 "Gay, Bi or whatever" male and I think that this movie shows, in an incredible way, the power of human love, it shows that we need to remove the labels attached to our physicalness in order to receive and respond to love on an e-motional (energy-motional) level. So much of what we taught to believe, or "told" to believe in our religious upbringing steers too far away from the universal foundation of love that far supersedes any man-made tradition. I believe that it is important to have spiritual grounding, but that in and of itself is left up to the believer and bares no limitations, religion on the other hand, because of its control factor, always bares limitations and as beautifully displayed in this movie, there are no boundaries on the power of human love, and there's something about male to male love that is so deep that it is almost a universe of it's own, It's the kind of love I wish to experience ~ no matter what the cost.

[CellarDweller115]

Welcome to DCF, gavern!

[Zudos]

Hey Gavern... Wonderful post...

Many of us have made huge changes in our lives because of the impact of BBM...

Look forward to getting to know you more...

[gavern]

Thanks for the warm welcome guys I sure gald forum exists!

[john john]

Hi Gavern! Welcome aboard!

Did you first see BBM recently?

[gavern]

Hi Gavern! Welcome aboard!

Did you first see BBM recently?

Yes a week ago, I couldn't even go to work the next day, I'm a musician and I am even composing a song in memeory of that movie, nothing has impacted me so, and I'm a very deep person, so you can just imagine! Thanks for the welcome.

[dahlia]

Hi Gavern 

So nice to have you here!

[paintedshoes]

Yes a week ago, I couldn't even go to work the next day, I'm a musician and I am even composing a song in memeory of that movie, nothing has impacted me so, and I'm a very deep person, so you can just imagine! Thanks for the welcome.

Let me join in the welcome, Gavern.  We here know a thing or two about the impact.     If we can answer any questions, please don't hesitate...

-Jackie

[JohnnyX]

This movie has had an incredible impact on my soul. I can't really use words to describe it. I am a 31 "Gay, Bi or whatever" male and I think that this movie shows, in an incredible way, the power of human love, ...
... and as beautifully displayed in this movie, there are no boundaries on the power of human love, and there's something about male to male love that is so deep that it is almost a universe of it's own, It's the kind of love I wish to experience ~ no matter what the cost.

Hello Gavern.
I wish to add another to the warm welcoming messages to you. I hope that you will find a lot of consolation in this lovely place.

If you should have the time, I would recommend reading earlier posts on the ORIGINAL of this thread. There are thousands of them in there, but it was marvellous therapy for me to be able to read them all, when I was at the early stage that you are at, of reeling after the impact of BBM.
Here is a link to page 1 of it: http://www.davecullen.com/forum/index.php?topic=101.0

Gavern, I have edited your post above, to leave in some parts which really speak to me; but also to say that FOR ME, I must disagree with your closing words there. In my own case, I NOW, post BBM, wish for that M2M closeness which you refer to; however as a long-time married man with an extremely loving wife who will not countenance such a thing; I KNOW that for me, I will probably never experience that M2M physicality, because the cost in losing her would indeed be too much for me.  By contrast, it is lovely that you feel so free and so strong that you are able to make that statement. (So please do not misunderstand me, there is NO criticism intended by what I write here; merely my different perspective.)

However, although I don't expect to ever have that M2M physicality now, I am BLESSED in that I briefly had the most beautiful love of a wonderful man in here just over a year ago; and I have the emotional love of two other wonderful men in here who continue to help me through the heart-break; along with several other marvellous correspondents who assist. I am very lucky to have met so many amazing people, and all HERE in this thread.

May your journey on this new road be a happy one for you.
All the best: JohnnyX.