Hello everyone,
What a good place this is! Glad to have found it. I haven't been in a forum or posted anything personal in almost 8 years, ever since I left Compuserve back in the 90's! Although the net has always been an integral part of my life since the early 90's.
I happened to see Brokeback Mountain yesterday morning when I was alone at home. I didn't expect anything, heard some acclaims about it and such but didn't give it too much attention. I don't lead a "gay life" any more and I feel no compunction in keeping up with gay things as I used to do when I was younger. Not that I'm old (mid 40's).
The film left me empty though, bringing me back to a place I thought I had done and dealt with years ago. I guess not! I didn't break down or anything, too jaded, perhaps, but instead felt this great silent place in my heart, and I had to get on line to see what was being said about it.
The official site was good with many messages there, I must have read hundreds, before I decided I wanted to say something about it too. Like I said, I don't get into forums and chats any more. Eventually I found this site. I've been reading through it since last night and, before I knew it, I had written 'my story'. I had never written it down before. Talked about it, thought about it but never written it down. Finally I posted a version that I hope isn't too long! Once you get going, you just keep going. Sorry about that.
I tend to be fairly level-headed, at least, that is my reputation, but this touches too deep to gloss over.
Thanks everyone,
ForeverTao
(Victor)