((((katie))))
i'm not sure but i think i know what you mean: in the beginning, there were so many emotions that the movie unleashed. after a while, we started processing those emotions. we made some changes in our lifes, we gained more life quality through those changes. and then, one day, we realized that this isn't everything. brokeback doesn't hold all the secrets in life and sometimes, it just isn't enough. there are other places, other people, other experiences we need to make our life full and "round". life isn't like the old quote the star trek fans used: "
everything i ever needed in life i learned from star trek." no movie, no story, can give us EVERYTHING we need. it would be pretty sad if it did, because we would be rather one-dimensional beings.
those were the feelings that i had a couple of months ago, i'm not sure it's the same you are feeling but i guess....?
when i felt that way, i started inviting other things (back) into my life. it shortened my forum time, i fell out of the top ten posters list (
)....but i felt "round" again. it didn't mean that i left the forum, above all, i have made a couple of really good friends here, and this is the best way of constant communication with them. but the forum doesn't rule my life, and as much as we love the movie, it shouldn't be the center of our life. if it was, we would have learned NOTHING from it. we would stay an ennis - hidden in another trailer, still not open and happily living in the world.
i hope all the sorrows in your life will be cleared soon...